When all you got to keep is strong

Move along, move along like I know you do

And even when your

hope is gone

Move along, move along just to make it through

- All American Rejects

It is official now. It became official last week when I got the words I have needed to hear for so long. I was hanging on to the need for the words and that was keeping me company. Keeping me from feeling so alone but that puzzle piece has been connected and now that I no longer have a need for them - it is official.

I am alone. Alone.

I no longer have a need to hold on to the past. Only a need to move on into my future. I was using my need for the words as an excuse. A reason to keep me from moving on and really starting my life again. I have no excuse now. I heard what I needed to hear.

My only question now is - how? How do I do this whole 'moving on' thing? Do I throw my important belongings in a sack, tie it to a stick and start walking or do I go to sleep one night in hopes that when the sun rises the next morning I will have 'moved on'? What does it really mean, anyway? I mean, I know that it means I am leaving my past, well, in the past but there must be a bigger meaning. Eh, maybe not. Maybe I am just asking far too many questions. Not unlike me, trust me.

I have been told that it is a gradual process. One that happens as it should and over time. Kind of like my heads up penny habit. I never know when I will come across one but it seems to happen when it should and in time.

Here's hopin' every heads up penny is moving me in the right direction.